How do you heal a broken heart when that heart felt real life love in a second life? I have moved on. There is still an ache of emptiness where my heart once was full. One does not just stop loving someone totally. There is a part of your heart that will always feel for that person. Love never totally dies. Yes people say you have to let go you have to put it behind you. Some even say what did you expect? I hear them I listen to them and I walk through my second life trying to think hopefully of people. I take advice of friends and go out and explore more of SL. I go out to events to try and meet new people. I have no agenda except to get out of my sly house. I try and keep an open mind. I am open to meeting new friends. So I pack up my smile and go alone but I do go and try. I meet someone and finally had the courage to take a chance. I let this person in a little bit then a little bit more. I took time to get to know them. I thought he was a nice, funny and trust worthy most of all. We talked and I thought we had a connection. Of course he said we did. I had hope but it seems it was a SL lie. I ask myself how stupid can one person be. How naive am I to try and trust someone only to have that trust used and abused again. So here I sit alone in SL. Yes I have a RL but due to circumstances yes I feel loneliness there too. I never minded being alone. I despise loneliness. It is a terrible feeling to be lonely in SL. My friends in SL all have people they see and the last thing they wish is someone tagging along. Funny how that is.. I go to concerts alone and I listen and enjoy the music then when it’s over people disperse and go onto other events. I go home and sit in my house and wonder if my wish of having someone care will ever be again. It a wonderful thing to be cared for.. To be missed... to have someone anxious to see you... to have someone ask how you are and mean it. To have someone make you smile for no reason at all. You know that feeling where you are smiling from your inside out. It is very addictive thing to have intimacy and be able to share your inner self with someone. It's a gift and then when it’s gone you really do feel like part of you died. I know I deserve something.. Well at least I hope I do... I am smart, funny and have a good heart. It does not seem that is not enough. One nighters of sex abound. I wish more than anonymous sex with some guy who uses you to get his rocks off.
Is it soo terrible to want someone to care? All of you who have that cherish it.. For it is a gift and you have no idea just how lucky you truly are.
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